All about my thoughts....

Hello,
Today is a start of a new day for me, and for many days that may come ahead... This past day has shown me so much about my life and what it stands for. I got a phone in the middle of the night, which seriously made me realize where my life is going. Someone (MM), from my past flew into my life suddenly which in turn made me very confused. He wanted me back, but he noticed that I was hesitant in taking him back. HE had stated, that "I know u have a man in your life now, other wise had you not, then you would have taken me back!" I had said " Really, why do you say that?"
He said" BEcause Aurora I know you, our feelings for one another run deep, and I know you would wanted to. I had told him that things have changed, and I have grown up quite a bit since then, and that in order to be happy , I had to move on with my life. It's so hard ebcause I practically threw myself at him, and confessed how I had felt about him at the time this all occured. HE turned me away. Shortly after wards, he met someone, but I always knew she didnt have what it took to make him happy. Turned out to be very controlling and possessive, and jealous. He IM'ed me outta the blue late in the middle of the night and then called me. We talked later on the phone, and it was then I told him about who I had recently found. I told him that the man I had been dating, is the one who makes my heart bounce and makes me feel like I mean something. NOt that MM never made me feel that way, but with MM, my feelings ran deeper and it was a different love. Love is not always the same. I can't go the rest of my life feeling as though, I want that same kind of love, because then it wouldn't be fair to the one I am with. The ending result was this, he was hurt and upset, because he recently broke off his relationship,and was hoping to start back up again with me. I am flattered he still feels love for me, bbt he hasn't alwasy been tehre for me and had a habbit of pushing me away out of his life. ANd he knows he did this as well, and feels so sorry for it and again stated, " It's bad timing as usual!"
We will be friends, but I guess its going to be harder on him. I will always love him, but I can't break my bf's heart to make someone else happy, and in the process, break my own. TG, he makes me happy. He took me out shopping Friday and I got my nails done and went clothes shopping for the concert, and then he did someting really wonderful for me, he handed me a box, and when i opened it up there was a penny inside the box. I said I didnt understand, he said he was giving me his cents worth lol and then slipped a beautiful ring on my hand. I havent taken it off since. He really shows his love for me, unlike any other man I have ever known. You cant control who u fall in love with, only who makes u unhappy and then that is where u draw the line and say, "Hey the hell with you, u mean nutin to me!" And throw it away and just move on... Well more later..... Bye, at least here I can talk to someone YOU.....